Patience is a virtue

One thing that I've always admired about my dad is his patience.  I always tried to have his same patience growing up.  I could wait in a line forever.  It was like a laid back kind of patience that might be because of our Polynesian culture, who knows, I just know that it was a trait that I wanted to have.  

 

The more kids I've had, the less patient I have become.  There is so much to be done.  I can't wait in a line with 3 wild kids, who don't understand patience yet, because there is a malfunction in the scanner. Ain't nobody got time for that!  I'm constantly thinking of all the things that could be done instead of waiting.  It became so bad that I was so quick to get angry about the dumbest things.  For what?  What good did it do me to get angry about things I couldn't control?  With Kalie, my patience has always been short.  This is something that I have felt so guilty and awful about forever.  I have been so hard on her for things she can't control, but I thought that I could.  Since starting Brain Balance I have really had to take a step back, lower my voice, and raise my patience level.  I have had to see things through different eyes, trying to be more Christ like in the process.

 

  I have gotten a lot better, with some slip ups here and there.   I can tell on the days when I don't have as good of patience as I should have the rest of the family is quick to anger too.  I think this whole process will be a blessing for us all.  It is testing different areas of our lives that maybe we didn't think needed help, or that we knew needed fixed but just couldn't seem to kick it ourselves; we needed a little nudge.  Slowly, I will get my patience back.  I'll be able to stand in a line with all my kids like no ones business.       

 

I'm not really sure why I chose to write about patience today.  I just felt like I needed to.  Maybe to help someone else who may be struggling with patience.  I just know that my biggest realization with this virtue is that my kids are young and, like I said, don't understand patience.  It is my job to be an example for them, like my dad was and is for me, and show them how to be patient.