Trials

The other day I had two different phone conversations-one with my sister and one with my grandma.  In both conversations trials came up.  My sister mentioned that she bets I can't wait for this trial to be over and will look back and wonder how I, we, even made it through.  My grandma reminded me that we have to remember that things will work out but only on the Lord's time.  Both of these statements are so true.

 

I know, but always forget, that the Lord has different timing for us than we might want.  For some reason, we are going through this trial.  For some reason, Kalie is going through these struggles. In my conversation with my grandma she also mentioned how sometimes we wonder if our prayers are even being heard because we want something done right away and it doesn't happen. I don't know how many times I kneeled down (in my closet because it's the quietest place in my house) and prayed and cried and then felt that hopeless feeling.  Maybe I was doing something wrong?  This was when my faith started to shake a little. 

 

When I was at my lowest, I was really low.  I felt disconnected to everyone, indifferent to everything.  My spirits were low and for a second, my testimony faltered. Everything seemed to be falling apart. One night, my friend posted a video to her Facebook and it hit so close to home.  I didn't even want to watch it at first because I knew what I would hear and see would be true words and it would make me cry and reevaluate everything.  I didn't feel like doing that.  But as soon as I was alone I watched it.  I would invite you to watch it too. (Get some tissues too)

 

 

"And that the Lord has promised 'I will not forsake thee'" "He has promised us angels on the left and on the right to bear us up, and he always keeps his word, His love is unfailing." 

I still cry every time I hear those words.  How could I ever doubt it?  How could I think for one second that our family was being forgotten?   To answer my sister's question.  I know how we are making it through this trial. Through our faith, through our knowledge that we our children of God, that Kalie is a child of God, and he would never forsake us or forget about us.  He wants us to succeed and make it through our trials. That's why he gave us "angels on the left and on the right to bear us up."  I have received an overwhelming amount of support through all of this from friends and family and that support is bearing me up so that I can bear Kalie up through it all.